Let's Be Clear About My Back

If I could show you an x-ray of my spine I would. To be clear, I have at the lower lumber digenerative disc disease. Meaning, two of my disc's because of trauma have lost a great deal of the fluid that keeps them thick and spongy, like a tire that is full to the max. They have become flat and thin. The injury probably happened at least 10 years ago. At the time when it initially happened I took muscle relaxers to ease the pain and left it at that. I never knew about yoga or nutrition as a remedy.
Then about 2 in half years ago I turned the wrong way and I threw my back out. It was horrible. For about three months on the daily basis my movement was limited. By this time I was teaching yoga and it was embarrassing to walk up to the podium crooked. I had signed up for a back bend clinic in Boulder Colorado. Esak Garcia was leading this clinic mostly to train people for yoga competition. One of training modalities he used was backbending or walking up and down the wall repetitively to change the structure of the spine. I didn't believe at time before going to the clinic that I should go. So I called him before the clinic was to take place and told him of my condition. But this time my back was so bad I couldn't lie down or sit and my organ functions were being affected. Esak told me I had to come to the clinic, that it would be make my back feel better. I believed him and so I went. I set up a tent in from of the Boulder studio and did what he said. I did close to 100 back bends a day and took one Bikram Yoga class for two weeks. It was there at that clinic that I met Mary Jarvis, a teacher of Bikram for at the time 25 years. Mary was hit by a car from behind, the car impacted going at 60mph. Mary had herniated discs through out her spine and a broken neck. To be clear, Mary's doctor told her she needed surgery and her yoga was over. Mary proved that doctor wrong and started back bending and taking two classes ever day for two years.

http://www.globalyoga.biz/About_Mary.html

What I learned from Mary changed my life. Her story is epic and beautiful. She a healer and as it would seem beyond nature. The picture you see of Mary in Locust posture was taken two years after her car accident. Mary believes in nutrition and yoga, specifically backbending to go to the source of the trauma in the spine and heal it. Of course it's more scientific than that. But I have realized that when I am pain in my lower back I start to manifest fear and that fear starts to compound on my pain.

At this moment I feel a little discouraged and fearful because that same pain has come back after the pregnancy. It's not as bad as two and half years ago but it's bad enough that I know I don't want to go down that road again. I haven't been overweight in 5 years and to have to lose thirty pounds again. It seems a tough road ahead of me. I love to eat. But I have to do it. I owe it to my children and to my whole life ahead of me.

For example at this point in the day I could eat my hand. I have eaten so clean all weekend my body just isn't use to yet. My hubby just go home and is wimping out on yoga. I need to go. It curbs my appetite to eat my hand.

Because I love food so much I have to show you my dinner. I am really into fennel right now because it helps me with my milk production. I have to keep that in mind as I watch my calories, practice yoga, teach yoga...etc. I worry a little about my milk production. The fennel has helped so far.