Finally, Taking Charge of My Spine

November 20th, 2am

Today has been one of those long days again. The pain in my lower back from two days ago is gone. When I went to bed two nights ago I was emotionally defeated once again by the pain in my body. So opted out of going to yoga yesterday because I thought I would give my body a break after doing 4 classes in three days. I felt so good on the 3rd day, I thought I'd sneak out and give it a go again. While in class my body was loose and I had my yoga mojo going on I finally grabbed my foot in Head to Knee posture, kicked and then locked out. That was a big mistake, all ego. I could cuss at myself but I won't. So lets not forget today, that's in the past. The house is a 1/4 clean which means I'm on my way to having what appears somewhat put together home for us to live in.

I have some green tea which is properly brewed in the house that I probably shouldn't have drank (because I'm a lactating mother and caffeine could cause my baby Apollo to be cranky). But I did and it give me a boost. So after much of doing nothing today I finally pulled out my veggies in the fridge and juiced!!!! I can hear the cheers now! Yeah! Whatever is inflamed in my body must go! And I'm finally using my dehydrator again.

It looks like backbending in January with Esak and the crew is going to happen but just a couple more things have to fall in place. Cruz's manny, Jose, has to come through and I need to sell my cloth diapers I refuse to use on craiglist for extra cash. I teach Bikram Yoga for a living (a yoga teacher with a bad back) but I really want to earn some well deserved cash for this trip. I will get to take my baby Apollo with me. Life is truly great when you are trying to heal your spine, seriously!
 
So, now that I have a headache and my kyphosis rounded spine has dull pain to the touch, I should probably start by getting some sleep. This is going to be a joy.
 
Yoga, 6am, probably not. We'll see. My breasts are filling up with milk and I am just not excited about pumping. God. (Prayer)

And then 9am, cold yoga, God. A couple of weeks ago I started teaching a one hour cold Bikram Yoga class. Our studio is the "studio of the month" at a yoga clothing store in town. Seems so unfair and a cruel joke to people who are probably not even on the fence about going to Bikram yoga. I suppose if I get one person to go it's probably worth it.

Oh and tomorrow is my day to lead advanced, oh man. I meant, God.

Sweet dreams.